There Is No Shame In Your Truth

For so many years I felt the shame that came with my truth. I felt like I should have done things differently. I felt like if only I had known better. The truth is though... I didn't. At that point in time that I was living in the truth that I once felt so shameful about I didn't know any better. I was walking in what I believed should have been done in that moment. We can't discredit ourselves for living in as far as we knew back then. I was very unsure of myself growing up. I always felt different than the others, and it was obvious that I didn't fit in. It made me feel like something was wrong with me, and that I needed to change some things about myself so that I could fit in with my peers. In doing so robbed me of a lot of years that could have been fulfilling if only I had known that it's okay to be set apart.

"We can't discredit ourselves for living in as far as we knew back then."

I didn't learn until later on in life that it's okay to be set apart... different... rare... original... to stand out... I looked back on my childhood and felt so shameful for behaving the way that I did. I would get upset with myself for not being okay with who I was when I was growing up. I would think about how I went out of my way to alter the very existence that God deemed beautiful. It made me so upset that I hurt myself so much it put me through an ongoing identity crisis. I lost sight of who I was because I was so caught up in trying to alter my image to look like someone else's image. Once I understood the fullness of who God was, and that I was created in His likeness I no longer felt the shame that came with my truth. I understood that my identity was rooted in Him, and that all that He is so was I.