Sticking To Your Routine

If I'm being completely honest I have been out of routine for weeks now. I haven't applied myself in any way shape or form. I guess you could say I've been in rest mode for a while now. Although I've been resting I've been feeling this pull to get back to it. I feel guilty for it though like I'm doing something wrong. I know that rest is apart of the process but for some reason this rest doesn't feel like resting. I know at some point I have to get back in routine and I'm dreading it. Not because I don't want the best for myself but because inwardly I just feel so exhausted. I feel like I've been going through this season of trial and error for so long that I just can't take it anymore and I need a long pause. I feel like the pull is God telling me not to stay there. It's been heavy and hard to get back in routine but this is where I have to push myself.

"I FEEL LIKE THE PULL IS GOD TELLING ME NOT TO STAY THERE."

It's been said the longer you stay out of your routine the harder it will be to start again. I've started and stopped so many times and wondered when will the day come that I remain consistent. I don't know when that day will come but what I do know is that I will keep trying. I believe the key to sticking to a routine is never giving up. I've witness myself stick to it but never long enough to where it I became consistent. I know that as long as I discipline myself enough I will show up in my routine every day.